My writing style

I used to love to write. I could crank out a 3 page paper in the 15 minutes before a class, handwritten,.no rough draft, no corrections, and get an A every time. Even through my English Comp courses in college, always A's, very few corrections even though now they were done on a computer. Even spell and grammar check rarely picked anything up. Some teachers let me get away with only a final draft, some didn't. Looking back, it was mostly because any energy I had to do homework went to the subjects I needed more time or energy for, since my migraines were fairly severe even then.
I haven't written much since school, emails for work, bullet point info for Powerpoint presentations, but for the most part I've stopped doing something I loved because any energy I had went elsewhere. I have a knack for numbers, so went into Marketing Analytics, by accident really, as I had initially applied for an accounting position. The gruelling hours of that position eventually led me back down the path to chronic vs episodic migraines.
I probably could have gone into journalism with my writing skills. May have been a better choice as writing is something I could maybe have done freelance on my good days.
I wanted to enter a chronic migraine writing contest a few months back. Rewrite Your Day - an essay about what day you had lost to migraine and what you had missed or would replace the day of pain with. In reality I would have needed to rewrite a day without migraine to have a day to write it. An online friend and chronic migraineur won one of the entry time frames of the contest.
In reality, I don't.know that I could have won. I now write what CMers call Migrainese. I talk in circles, transpose words, misspell frequently, and my punctuation.is awful. I rarely bother to fix it. The other CMers(chronic migrainuers) understand what I mean, and thats mostly who I communicate with these days.
So if my posts don't make sense, or have a million misspelled words, etc, please be kind and don't point it out. I miss writing well, but I'm slowly learning to accept my limitations, and if I only have 10 good minutes to write a post, I'm not going to spend half of it fixing my errors. Please understand I wish I could.crank out perfect writing like I used to, but I can't.  Maybe one day I will find a better med.combo,.and be able to write like I used to, work like I used to, spend time with my kids like I used to, really that part is number one, the kids. Just please go easy on my mistakes.

A little bit about me

Hi. I suffer from chronic migraine. The fact that I can even type this is a sign that today is one of my bad days vs. One of my normal, so painful its unbearable days. Please don't ever make the mistake of thinking I'm having a good day. I haven't had a good day since sometime in 2008, and even then those were incredibly rare.
What makes things even worse, is I am a wife and mother of 4. I was diagnosed at age 7, and I met the definition of chronic (15+ days a month) by high school. I used to suffer in what I call cycles, a few really bad months, where I had a migraine nearly every day, then a few months that were right at about 15 days, but the severity of each attack was more tolerable. My two older children, who are 17 and nearly 12, remember times when I had occasion glimpses of being pain free. My 2nd youngest may, but I really only had one good year, 2007, and he would have been 5. In 2008 I became pregnant with our 4th, and while the pregnancy didn't make things intolerable, the limit on treatments made things feel worse than they were. My youngest was born on New Years Day, 2009, and 8 days later I had to be readmitted due to postpartum preeclampsia. It turns out I have an autoimmune clotting disorder that aggravated things, and I have not had a single good day since.
I live my life at a 7/10 on the pain scale, but my pain scale is a little different from those who do not suffer chronic pain. I am willing to bet that most people consider unmedicated childbirth or a kidney stone to be a 10/10. In my pain scale, childbirth is a 4/10, maybe a 5/10. Unfortunately, when I have my worst days and hit 10/10, I am treated as a liar or drug seeker when I hit the point I have to go to the emergency room, and even then, my main reason for going is because I've spent 4 days in a row vomiting and am so dehydrated its dangerous. I've actually been forcibly removed by security at one ER, have my mom drive me to another, and find out my potassium was so low my heart could have gone into a fatal arrythmia.
I will post more about each of these topics in depth when I'm having another only bad day. Mostly I just want to let the rest of you who suffer as I do know that you aren't alone.
Kelly